Some of you will call me and idiot, some crazy, others will just say you'll miss me, but I really do feel I need to take a sebatical from all of this that we call dA, if not to clear my head, to at least retain some of my sanity.

I'll keep it this short and sweet.

~Clyde Dillinger Wright~





Ignore my last.FM I haven't used it in ages

By the time this is finished properly it will be close enough to the new year for me for all of this to be a definitive review. This year has been one giant roller coaster for me.

The year started off with me breaking up with my "fling" from last year (sadly they dumped me a week after their dad died) and then ending up in one of the most fucked relationships I've ever had, but we needn't talk of her at all, nor what she did to me.

In between those relationships i tried to finish off my high school education one last time, but sadly I am too old to go through mainstream schooling anymore, I just feel like a square wheel put on a Camry there.

From that led to me wagging school instead of going and them dicking me around with my Exit forms so in all technicality I failed miserably at a school i had told I'd left them but kept me on the books till the year finished. From that spare time I got together with my next and most recent ex, Jess, whom ended up using me for a one night stand, and boy do I regret that sex.

After that came all of my mates in town stabbing me in the back and spreading rumors and the such about me so as to tarnish my reputation, which culminated in me making a 21k trek back to my grandparents at 2 in the morning so pissed off I was ready to go postal on them all.

From there took me back to Morwell after having no job, a screwed sleeping pattern and no schooling, which led me to getting back into a mate I met last year which has turned out to be at least a garnet in the rough, and that led to some good drinking sessions and talk of warfare.

Now we are coming to the end of the year (yes this year has been seemingly short for me for once). Earlier in December I moved all the way up to Queensland after 11 months of planning, culminating my year by being in a house alone, with no smokes, no grog, scant food and a white cat chasing a gecko around the house.

Oh well at least next year is looking to be shaping into one that could be the greatest of my life (sorry guys no details here until later on in the New Year)

Take care fellow deviant little meat bags and drink up, for life is a big party and we should all celebrate it from time to time.





Ignore my last.FM I haven't used it in ages

Rules of the game:

- Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

I'll choose Cradle Of Filth just for the fun of it

1. Are you male or female?
The 13th Caesar

2. Describe yourself.
Loathesome Fucking Christ

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Temptation

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
As My Stomach Churns

5. Describe your current relationship.
Babylon A.D (So Glad For The Madness)

6. Where would you want to be now?
Bleeding In Heaven (Hidden message there)

7. How do you feel about love?
Thank God For The Suffering

8. What's your life like?
Heaven Torn Asunder

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Dusk And Her Embrace

10. Say something wise.
Hell Awaits

I'll tag and





Ignore my last.FM I haven't used it in ages

1. Put your iTunes [or any other media device] on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag your friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Geoff Tate & Others - Silver Bells

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Atreyu - Lip Gloss & Black {Dead on bish}

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Atreyu - Dilated

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Rob Zombie - What Lurks On Channel X

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Atreyu - Tulips Are Better

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Between The Buried & Me - Bicycle Race {Yes I do always say lets have a bicycle race..o.O}

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Mc Lars - Rapgirl {ok this is getting really confusing}

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
BTBAM - Informal Gluttony {It knows i think of food }

WHAT IS 2+2?
I Am Ghost - Buried To Shallow (yes the answer does just seem to be right under the surface)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Am Ghost - Lady Madeline In Her Coffin {Don't ask but it is close}

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Rob Zombie - Demenoid Phenomenon {They sure bloody are}

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Atreyu - My Fork In The Road (Your Knife In My Back){Wow it got one dead on right}

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Powerglove - Red Wings Over Baron{In an alterantive version of FFVI o.O}

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
BTBAM - Three of a Perfect Pair {I'm as lost as you}

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Night Surgeon {Wow they think me homocidal wait that wasn't a suprise}

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Rob Zombie - Feel So Numb {It will as i will be drunk so as not to freak}

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
BTBAM - Colorblind {I actually wouldn't mind that}

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Otep - Filthee {Thats right too filthee to mention}

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Atreyu - Demonology and Heartache {I will not tell you}

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Rob Zombie - Begining of the End {Well we are}

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Atreyu - This Flesh Is A Tomb {Living}

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Otep - Home Grown {In other words I won't which makes the above annoying}

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Rob Zombie - Dragula {Winamp knows my secret}

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Atreyu - A Vampires Lament {No Comment}

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Otep - Requiem

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Mc Lars - Signing Emo {No WA I am not an emo so drop it}

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
BTBAM - Kickstart My Heart {ODing?}

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Rob Zombie - Sawdust In The Blood

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
BTBAM - Selkies: The Endless Obsession {The Future It Seems}

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Rob Zombie - The Scorpion Sleeps

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Atreyu - My Sanity On The Funeral Pyre

As it's been a while since one of my trademark rants I figured it was time for the old me to try resurface enough to give you one.

Lately I've been seeing the "Children see. Children do" ad again and it's got me to thinking. Are children really that impressionable, I mean do you see a child seeing a murder commited and then going and re-enacting it with their friends? If so then I guess I'll have to strike this off of the record and release an appology after it. But just personally I think those "Family First" Groups should shove their self-righteous heads all the way up where the sun don't shine, as they forget we have these things called buttons and switches (yeah i know the "ever so recent" invention of these slipped by me too) that allow us to turn something off if we think that our children shouldn't be watching or listening to the content being thrown at them. Even from birth us humans have an inbuilt sense of right and wrong, it's just our moral compasses are not always set exactly right (or in the case of some people is way off kilter with the rest of the world). With this moral compass we know whether we've done bad from an early age, as we see the reactions of our parents and instantly know wrong has been done. Therefore why should we have to be dealing with this constant slew of "Christian Moral" fed bullshit, belive it or not people not everyone in this country is Christian, hell some of us aint even religious, just because "Jehovah" apparently said what we were doing was wrong does not mean we have to listen to your shit about it every time we wake up early and flick on our TVs or every time we do something wrong around one of your "flock" (yes i realise i have veered off subject but that happens{stops for a bit to roll a smoke...has run out of papers><}). Well let me finish this before i try tearing aprat this room looking for the fuckers. Nearly all my life I have been called a sinner, merely for the fact I lived my life the way i wanted and that involved Underage (un-wedded too) Sex, Not treating ym body like the temple i should be (The assortment of shit i've put this body through and through this body boggles me to this day) or just downright not beliving in any of your faiths (here is the reason for my divergence) but does any of this make my mother a bad person for "showing me the wrong way". The first one of you to say so better be ready to back their words up with their teeth and maybe a few of their bones. My mother did nothing but treat me like a human being and point out what was wrong to me, I will admit that the only point of the add i agree with is the final moments in which the father and his son beat the wife/mother, seeing violence from your father against your mother can do one of 2 things; either make you act/fear that yourself or toughen you against it and the people that cause it. It is at this point i give up to find something to crave at least one of my addictions/habits.

The Squidlike-Wolf singing out once more


Edit: as my 3000 PV is coming up soon the person who finds it will be repayed somehow